Thursday, October 11, 2012

Endless Possibilities

Lots and lots of decisions are having to be made. All awesome things. Nothing for the immediate, immediate future, but definitely for the next year. I can't help but reflect a little as all of these opportunities are being handed to me. Dare I go back and read an entry from three years ago? It's not even necessary. I know where I was and I've come a long way.

I have accomplished many of the things I once had little faith I would ever be capable of accomplishing. What I thought were my ultimate goals are turning out to only be hurdles in pursuit of bigger and better things. I can't say there are life altering events that are waiting for me necessarily, but there are possibilities that didn't exist before, and that's pretty cool if you ask me. My future is filled with endless opportunity now. Two years ago if you mentioned the word future I probably would have given you the middle finger. I saw black and only held on to goals because I had nothing else to hold on to. Now it's exciting to ponder all of the possibilities. And my goals aren't just something to desperately hold on to, but are a part of me now. I've proven to myself that not only can I do the things I wanted to do, but I can excel at them and do even more than I imagined. I am not as mediocre as I once thought I was.... damn it that feels good. I feel like I'm back. I have a few cuts and scrapes but they're healing and I'm ready to tackle life!

It's amazing how time transforms us - molds and manipulates us - sometimes for the better and sometimes worse. For so long I was scared that time was only going to be the death of me. Aging and death - that is what it meant to me and it was forever out to get me. But now I see that it's so much more. It's also healing and the possibility for second chances. It's new memories, new friends, and new love. I know now that, though I am still jam pack full of flaws and have a list of things I need to do that is a mile long, I have time to work on each one of those things. I've learned to enjoy my time while I have it and appreciate it by using it wisely. I suppose it's a glass half full kinda thing... it's much better than half empty, I promise you.

I haven't written a random, doesn't-really-make-any-sense journal post in a while. It feels good.

Here's to time! And the future! And to endless possibilities!

....and to sleep. GOOD-night!

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I love this post and it makes me very happy for you. :-)

karen said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

This is beautiful and coherent writing, Karie. I love the journey you continue to share.

karen (vancouver)

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Endless possibilities:) God bless you Karie!!

Laura Arual said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I have followed your blog posts off and on for a while now... Reading them my heart went out to you, and I was in awe of your ability to write it all down and your courage.
Reading it today, I realize indeed how far you have come, and also in my reflection, how far I have traveled out of my own darkness.
Thanks for providing me with the opportunity to reflect, and keep writing.

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You are all kinds of awesome and help me more than you will ever know. That's for the random post.

The New Normal said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Love this post! It sounds like such an exciting time for you right now. You have such amazing strength and I cannot wait to hear the good things that are ahead for you!

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I just started reading this blog and i just wanted to tell you that you are a true inspiration :)

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